


Misunderstood

by Juunigatsu



Category: Zoids
Genre: Angst, Drama
Language: English
Status: In-Progress
Published: 2002-10-06
Updated: 2002-10-06
Packaged: 2013-05-05 16:03:13
Rating: K
Chapters: 1
Words: 666
Publisher: www.fanfiction.net
Story URL: http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1002579/1/
Author URL: http://www.fanfiction.net/u/144029/Juunigatsu
Summary: Raven's introspective POV on everything. Very short...actually it's more about the authoress feelings with people in real life and how much she is so pissed off with them. You just gotta love people with psychological problems. -.-;





	Misunderstood

Misunderstood

It's unfair that I'm misunderstood. People judge me at first sight based on the actions I do. They don't care how I feel about everything. They're all after my head based on their stereotypical judgment of me. Yeah I know what is my stereotype and that is being a cold, heartless bastard.

Heartless am I? Yes if you are the enemy. 

I'm a destroyer of all that I surveyed. I had no feelings for any living things. I don't care if you just stand there before me, I will annihilated you with no conscience of guilt. My initial view of you and everyone else is that you are my enemy. My enemies are all against me. 

This does not mean I don't have feelings. Of course I have feelings. Feelings of hate, anger, rage and…and my god worst of all, the feeling of being used. I feel that nobody cares on how I feel about everything.

Prozen…he just used me to bring out his will. He just send his crony Hiltz to do it for him. Reese is annoying and I wish she just leaves me alone. Why I let them that because they're no threat to me.

I still hate them all. I want to mention this again, they don't care about me. They only care that I had the skill to bring utter chaos. This goes the same for Shadow on account that he is an organoid.

Abandonment…another feeling that haunts me. I have this forsaken feeling since I was a child. My father, researching on organoids and zoids. I don't like zooids much because they're nothing but a bunch of junk metal. I had no idea on what is so appealing about them. I blame on zoids for my loneliness. 

The fact that I am very good at piloting at zoids sicken me. The only part of zooids that brings me delight is that I use one to destroy one. I use a zoid to kill a zoid. I will kill the thing that destroyed my life in the first place.

Hate…My hate for Van Flyheight. That zoid lover. I bet is he could, he would married to them. His loves for zoids makes me sick. His organoid Zeek too. His little ramblings that zooids are living beings is blasphemy. I keep telling that fool that they worthless mechs that kills you. They have no feelings. They don't love you . That papaya lover idiot believed they love you…It's people like him that I want to wiped of the planet.

…

Maybe I hate Zoids because they are more loved than anything else on Zi. Maybe I feel unloved…screw Reese what does she cared about me? My skills? That's it? She is just one annoying girl that gets all giddy at the sight of their boyfriend. She is nothing to me. 

The only love I had for…is for Shadow. He is silent albeit he roars. He listens to what I said and doesn't complain. He is the only one who cares about me. He is my friend when I was young. When I grieved and solaced on in my dark loneliness. He only understood me.

I was misunderstood. Maybe…people will like me better if they see what I truly see about everything in my perspective and wouldn't bitch to me about how wrong or right it is. 

If people accept for how I feel about my ordeal of everything. I might changed. When I get my kick at Van and be satisfied I'll be at peace with my soul.

Note: Most of this fic is from my private diary. I have a rough time last week in real life, so most of the fic probably doesn't sound good. Don't hold me onto anything.

Now hugs for Raven-chan!

Raven: Don't touch me. 


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